I think I know what my problem was yesterday. I did not have caffeine. None. I do not drink coffee. I do not drink tea. I cannot stand the taste of either one of them. No, my caffeine of choice is one 5-Hour Energy Max per day. I get up in the morning, take my meds, give Honey her meds, and have one 5-Hour Energy. It lasts me the entire day. Today, I followed my regular routine and I feel back to normal.
I’ve been plugging away at ‘My New Beginning’ for 29 days now. Some days have been easier than others. What I am finding is I am being more consistent knowing there are others actually ‘seeing’ my progress and are truly in a similar spot to me. I am finding by actually opening myself up in a way I never have before, putting my inner-ugliness out there for all to see, is more cathartic and releasing than I ever thought possible. I am learning a little more about myself every day.
I have completed Total Sculpt Plus Abs. As I was doing the cool down, I realized I was going to miss the Weight Loss Support Group Meeting at work. I completely forgot all about it . . . AGAIN! I really need to have some kind of louder reminder. Working Second Shift is fantastic for me most of the time. Most normal people have take their lunch at 1200. At that time, I am just getting around. It is my ‘first thing in the morning.’ I feel terrible as I told the ladies I would be there. Thankfully, they understand I work Second Shift and are pretty forgiving.
Today I am planning my food around eating a Strawberry Paczki. Sure I have the ‘extra’ exercise calories, but I try not to dip into them. I am allowing myself this indulgence. If I tell myself ‘No, you cannot have it,’ it makes me want it all the more. I am really working on the whole ‘you cannot have this ever again’ or ‘you cannot have that ever again’ because if I deny myself something I really want, I will say f*ck and eat it . . . and then some. I figure if I allow myself to have whatever I want (within reason, of course), it makes whatever I am desiring to lose appeal. Mind games. I must play them to my advantage.
Before I sign off here and get ready for work, I have to share an observation from Friday. Rather than preforming The FIRM’s Signature Move, The Tall Box Climb, with the fully assembled TransFIRMer (14″: 8″ section and 6″ section), it is becoming easier. I do not appear to be struggling as much. It may almost be time to try it with the fully assembled TransFIRMer! I noticed the same thing during today’s workout. However, by the time I thought about putting the whole thing together, that move was finished. Oh well, there is always tomorrow’s workout. 🙂
I hope everyone has a Magnificent Monday!